F off.
Syakirah, the girl who can't stop flirting with Baby.
Although I'm not in love with Baby, I don't want you messing around with Baby.
So, why don't you just leave him alone before I do nasty stuff to you.

Hahahaha. takde kerje. I finally know how Baby feels when I tell him about the boys who like me or i like them, or whatever luh. He gets really pissed and start scolding colorful vulgar at me. (obviously, Baby has no respect for me :/ )

Baby said, after I asked him to tell her to fcuk off.

• "HAIYO D:
  Mana aku nak letak muka aku nantiiiiiiiiii.
  "Trigger my foul words" ah seh nmpk.
  Hahahahaha. Someone here's gonna engage in Babi Hutan mode... I wonder who.
  (:"

Haha. babi hutan mode. lol. Well, i did enter for a moment. but i cooled down. haha. well. Im done writing.
Dont mind this post full of negativity. Hope it doesn't hurt your brains like mine.
Peace out home dawg!

Syakirah, you dont know me. I dont know you either. So, dont take this post personally.
I'm just being over dramatic and paranoid.

xoxoxoxo

Phone spoiled today =.=
So, i secretly used Syahmi's old phone( which is so freaking hard to use) to sms V. haha. Then I placed back the sim to my hp and asked Syahmi if I could use his old hp.
He was reluctant at first but in the end, he gave in. Syahmi is super generous and understanding today. Not his usual self. haha. In return, i had to keep my promise to play halo with him D:
You see, yesterday, dad insisted i try Chendol. So i begged syahmi to try it first. He said I had to play with him Halo in return. So, yeah. Played halo. Syahmi keep shouting at me to stop messaging. I only message when Master Chief is running. Still, he keep scolding me. lol. Speaking of Halo, I think I'll post a video," Blame Halo 3". It's a song from "Sorry, Blame it on me" by Akon and this guy singing it is so-called a Halo-addict and he's singing it to his wife. The video is pretty good and the lyrics are funny.

Anyway, after playing Halo, called my dear friend, She/He told me something that got me really paranoid. Too paranoid :p I am so gonna confront that slut siia. Haha. Like real only x) But still, I am gonna tell her to back off. Oh, the slut is not my friend. haha. Whatever it is, she sooo have to back off because my friend is mine. All mine xP The slut is such a flirt. I know if I were to mention my friend's name, all of you will think I'm in love with my friend x) But I'm not. haha. Just selfish :PP

Well, here's the vid :]

Watch ! Lol.

KEVIN ! haha

Hahaha. This pic of my mum has nothing to do with what I'm writing. Well, since she's not in the "picture", I decided to upload her picture instead. (if you get what i mean)

Woke up at 1 today. Brushed teeth. Ate. Got ready. Off to geylang. Pasar D: I told dad to bring me to First Lady but he brought me to a wet market instead. Can die seh. The filth and the smell. I wouldn't say stench because those were spices. Anyway, bought two er.. dresses? and a scarf for my head. Then otw to Bedok, I asked my dad something.

Me : Pa, what block do you live in? How to get there?
Pa: Why? *smiling
Me: Just in case I want to run away. hehs.
Pa: You take MRT, dropped at Bedok. Walked from KFC there.
Me: I don't know. What block?
Pa: 23. You can take bus 12 to get there.

And as we passed by the KFC while we were on the road, Dad pointed out the block he stayed.
Me: ohhh... What storey uh ? 10 is it?
Pa: Ya, ten.
(pause)
Pa: Did you know that if you have a pc or laptop, there's free internet available at bedok house?
Me: Really? Woah, how come?
Pa: From central there.
Me: how did you know?
Pa: My friend told me.
Me. Oh..

So yeah. I can run away now :DDDD

I posted a bulletin today. The survey led me into remembering the day I first fell in love. So deeply. And then, I feel hurt. So hurt. And I was listening to Cry by Rihanna as I thought about it -_-. I'm over you, boy. I'm not sour or anything. You were great for the first few months. I was so happy and contented. Or so I thought I was. But now I realised you hurt me so much and I still loved you. Love was indeed blind at that point of time. Why did I let myself love you? Why am I so stupid? Why didn't I just listen to my friends disliked you :/ Damn, I'm an idiot. Well, what hurt me was that you felt i wasn't good enough for you. You said so yourself.. And you just walked out. Haiz. Everyday, I think, why wasn't i pretty enough for you ? Was I really that ugly that you dumped me after 5 months, or was it that you were just freaking shallow? Well, you were a learning point in my life. Never fall for a guy too deeply, or never entertain a guy like you.

All the best for your singing career :]
I'm sure you'll do fine like you always do.
xoxo

.. Was it karma ?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE~
I'd like to thank everyone for making and coming to the surprise party. I appreciate it.
Thank you, Mum and dad, Syahmi, T-Jan, Nenek, Iman, Nita, Mr K, Firdaus, Another Firdaus, Liyana,another liyana, Hidayah, Marrissa, Aliah, Asyraf,Anson, Ammar, Hana, Shaik, Sakinah, Ruzana, Rudy, Aifaa, Cheryl, Kzel, Farhan, Rose, Rahmat, Dinah, Satha, Syukri, Nina, Nisa, Coleen, Nuraini, Ying, Wahab, Pecky, qhai, Atikah, Atip, Richard, Ishaq, Alex, Ahmad, Raihan(o), Kenneth, Dilveer, Khairul, "Sky", Ras, Nadiah, Naz, Rafidah, Kat, Apento, Geri,Fadd, Hazirah, Jome,milah, Another Ammar,Shahril, king, daniel,don, another another firdaus, Thaqif,salihin,henry, Azlan,Raden Irfan,Khairi,Chendel, Uros, Heiy,Hidir Imran, Yan,Frankie,Marcus,Eileen,Ain,Ismail,wan,Anwar,V,Another another another firdaus and some other people for your birthday wishes and prezzie :DD

And happy birthday to Naz !!

WHAT A SURPRISE !
Last Friday, my mum and firdaus were like talking on the phone. Mum said she wanted to ask firdaus about mosque and his mum. I didn't buy that story. Suddenly, it hit me like deja vu. When I was primary 4, mum called hidayah for a surprise party.haha. Anyway, on sunday, mum insisted i go to tamp to buy ham for my grandma -.-" Okayyyy. I only went there cos I wanted to return and borrow books. And my mum keep rushing me and firdaus was rushing me too. Andand at tamp, firdaus called me and said he was at ws supermarket and it was suspiciously quiet.(he was in my room actually) Here's the crazy part, I went back to WS, Firdaus called me. He said my mum told him to tell me that I should not go home until the rain stop. Since when did my mum care about me getting wet ???! So, I ate and walked around WS like an idiot. Suddenly, my mum called me and asked me to hurry home -_- Said grandma wanted to go home and asked me to hurry. Since when was granny impatient (??) Then she told me to take the cab 0.o So unlike her. Took the bus instead.

Skiiip to when i reached home. OMFG, a surprise party ! omgomgomgomgomg. I totally didnt see it coming. (unlike when i was pri 4)
I didnt see the food( except for the fishballs) before I left. I didnt see no nothing. No balloons or banner. But when I stepped in, I saw my friends and a cake andand decorations and food :O

So yeah, my god. Turns out my family and Firdaus planned this. Thenthen. everyone left one by one. I took a bath. Talked to my granny and t-jan and mum. They talked about Firdaus.

T-jan : I know who's your special someone !
Me : Who? Where got ?
T-jan: Firdaus. * turns to granny * Her boyfriend
Granny: Oh, Firdaus your boyfriend uh ? * nods her head *
Me: No, no. haha.
Granny: Firdaus is handsome. * looking at her cigarette* If you want a guy, make sure he's the only child. If not, ader adik-beradik leceh.

Well, Marissa has the video footage. Hope she send it to me !
Peace out home dawg !
and happy 15th birthday to me !!
And btw, Firdaus and I are not in love -.-"
P.S THE CUPCAKES WERENT SUPPOSE TO BE EATEN !!!

You're really incredible. Seriously. Stealing my life's savings was good enough. Stealing my new ipod? It hurt me so much that I cried for 3 days straight. And you didnt care. You scratched that fcuking ipod like fcuk and made it filthy and denied it? Everytime I lay eyes on the bruised gift I worked so hard for, I couldnt help but to cry. My heart feel so crush. You said you had the intention to return it, but you changed all the songs to your favourites ! You claimed that you did not steal it. Then what is it called then? PILFERING ?! You son of a bitch, you came home that day and said you'd returned my ipod. That very fcuking day, you stole all of my allowance ?! Fuck you cb. I've been keeping that allowance for my bills.

As long as I don't forgive you, I swear you will suffer with your limps torn apart on the lonely streets, yet still not dead.

Yesterday !

Woke up at 9 plus.(after liyana woke me up) Then, followed her to school to submit her order. Headed to tamp mall. Walk. Walk. Walk. Talk. Talk. Talk. Then.... Firdaus, NOT son of Sukiman, came. Liyana like so happy-happy. haha. Then went home. Got ready and met up with Izyan. Go Bugis ! haha. Wanted HOT PINK hair dye, but ended up with LIGHT BLUE hair dye. Then eat-eat, went to her house. First, I bleached my hair, then dyed it with blue. The BLUE wasnt what I expected because it was getting late and my mum called. Reached home, my mum kind of scolded me(?) Not because I was late or anything, because I didnt dye my hair properly -.-" I told her I didn't wait for 60 minutes after putting on the blue dye because she kept calling. Then she asked me why I didnt just tell her that I was dyeing my hair, so she would not have pestered me to go home. Once again, I AM AN IDIOT ! haha. Nevermind. And I plan to sleep over at Izyan's place cos I've yet to do so all my life. Izyan and Ajax has stayed over my house for like thousands of times ! lol. No fair. And guess what, I can't get over what my ******* brother has stolen. DDD: It sucks. I hate him.
Photos to be uploaded soon~
Peace out home dawg !
xoxo

This year has been the most depressing year of my whole 15 years of living. I think I've hit rock bottom. I've never been so sad for the whole year. However, at the same time, I've been in my worst behaviour ever. I hate myself for that. Why cant I just be a nice person? Maybe the depression has turned me against myself and everyone else. What made me most depress was the separation of my parents and the habit of Syakir. Yeah, that mean bastard. I don't ever want to see him again. Sometimes, I feel like I dont love him at all. The hatred has tored our relationship apart. Even Syahmi is angry with him. I guessed family problems do hit me real hard. I wish to avoid them all but you know what they say, "you can run, but you can't hide". One thing I hate about when I'm depressed, is the urge to commit suicide or to run away. So many nights have I cried myself to sleep, this year. It was the only time when I could let out my feelings. But because my maid sleeps in my room now, I have to cry softly because she has ears. I wish I could scream my feelings out. Right now,it's all clogged up, ready to explode anytime. The negative effect: uncontrollable and endless. I pray hard all these emotions will fade away. I wish I could cry it out but I know I can't.

Okay. I spent one whole day making cupcakes. And my mum condemned them D: Yeah, they're lousy. But Firdaus said he'll be my sole customer :] I'm not done with some of the cupcakes. I'll design them tomorrow ! Random note: Alex's parents think he's msging a sugar mama[me]. LOL

P.S My mum told everyone Firdaus was my bf. hahahaha

Sunday afternoon was the last time my ipod was seen. At night, my brother asked for my ipod box so i gave it to him. Today, I woke up and looked for my ipod. Then I realised something. Why was my ipod charger gone? I cleaned my room on monday and saw no ipod charger. Strange. I looked some more. Syahmi suspected it was my brother. Then I realised that everything fell into place. My fucking brother took my ipod before he moved out of the house. I hope he mati telanjang at the road sia...

Yay! I back, baby !
I'll reply tags here, hope you dont mind !

Lau ; Some girl. I dono her name. haha

Iz; Hey, I'll link you asap! :D

Hana; Hi HANA !

Leya; ifmyt ! very much. haha


Peace out home dawg !