Shahrul's Brother and mine

Shahrul and Ashraf

Shahrul~

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Today my classmates and I had a 'picnic' . haha. Brought Pringles. Firdaus brought a heart
chocolate.Koko is there too. he fall in love with firdaus . Koko marries firdaus. Those striked words were typed by my brother while I was away. lol. Anyway, Belinda brought Ritz and 2 packet of sweets. Cheryl brought a packet of Yupi Coca-cola. Ate and ate until I was too full for recess. Had social studies test.

After school, my stomach was full of BUTTERFLIES ! I was so nervous cos Mr Yang wanted to talk to me..Then he suggested to go to Macdonald's at Lp. LOL. But there's were too many greenviewans. So, we went to a food court instead. He treated me Ribena. Wee~ Talk and talk and talk. Well, Mr yang did the most talking. Then he started talking about the crazy girl behind me. I was like "WHO??" Actually it was Cheryl Yee. LMAO. I was like laughing. He said that because Cheryl is always happy regardless of whatever happens and it makes him wonder. haha. He asked me if I brought my phone. I was reluctant and I was like stammering. In the end, I said yes and he told me to take down his handphone number. After the chatting was done, Hema jay-walked in front of him and was pretty uncomfortable about it. I told her that me and mr yang had jay-walked too. haha

Went home. lazed. went out again.
and mum has been a bad mood lately. driving me nutts.
She told me that she's watching me. lol.

A little thing called love :)

Love is a many splendored thing, they say,
And I believe it when you looked my way,
Out of the blue, things seemed to happen
By chance or destiny, is the question.

Living my life so long, without knowing your existence,
Then came a day we felt each others presence,
Guess what's meant to be will always find a way,
Love creeps into hearts and decides to stay.

A love so exquisite, yet so intricate,
In a world of only "you and I"
A love we can't even demonstrate,
A secret we have to keep for life.

I love you, honey, and its from my heart,
I hope you know that you're no beggar from the start,
You make me fly without wings,
You make my heart wants to sing.

Every moment I spent with you,
Is every one of my dreams coming true,
More than words, I want to show you how I feel,
Someday, some place, sometime, I will.

Love is a journey for two,
Step by step, me and you,
The future we can't see,
Let love lead the way for you and me.


i love you, Koko ♥

I've been bellydancing lately and decided to learn the names of the steps for come purposes.
I've learnt that lift ribs, roll back gradually straightening spine until I get to my hips,then release hip is called camel. then hip lifts,drops. hips circling in an 'O' in hip circles. common sense huh. hand isolations. hips shimmy and etc.

Alphabet soup for dancers !

A: Arms
B: Body wave (undulation)
C: Camel
D: Diamond step
E: Eye contact
F: Figure 8 Hips
G: Ghawazee step
H: Hip lifts and drops
I: Isolations
J: Jazz Square
K: Kicks
L: Levels
M: Maya (McDonald's M)
N: Neck slide
O: Hip Circle (Shaped like the letter 0)
P: Pose
Q: Queen walk
R: Ribs
S: Shimmy
T: Twist
U: U-step
V: V-Step
X: X-ray
W: waltz step
Y: Yemenite step
Z: Zaghareet and Zills

creds to prodigy.net :D

Today, I went afk on msn for quite sometime.
______ sent me a "letter".
I guess I'm the cause of his thoughts. He lamented a few things and i feel blamed for it.
Maybe I shouldn't have wrote it. But I couldn't have just told him the truth right at the face bluntly. I had no choice.
____, you're not a worthless piece of shit. I'm really sorry,____. I didn't mean it. Maybe all these things happen because there is someone special waiting for you out there. I couldn't stead with you. For some reasons, I just can't. I saw you as a friend. I love you as a friend. I just can't seem to see the chemistry between us. I'm sorry. I would like to make it up to you :/ And you DO deserve to have BGR. And you're NOT a fucker.

I shouldn't have wrote him that letter. But what was I suppose to do ??
Oh god, this is all too confusing D: I am so so so sorry,______. I feel so blamed and angry at myself. At the same time, helpless and remorseful. I was left speechless, unable to reply him, afraid of making things worse.

ONE QUESTION,______.
ARE WE STILL FRIENDS ?
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HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY & happy two months :D
which I couldn't celebrate DD:

I kept having asthma attacks. One in school, two at home.
what bad luck :/
It started in the quadrangle. I told firdaus i'm having asthma attack. And he told me the school was going to send me to the hospital and watch me DIE. DD:

By the time i reach physics lab, my eyes were watery. went to G.O with valarie. i seriously couldnt breathe. i was like struggling to breathe, gasping for air. I really appreciate Val for helping me out though. My whole body was numb and i had a hard time moving. Abang came. I could smell the smoke of the cigarette. haha. then dad came. Went to the doctor. Took the "smoke machine". Went home. ate. had asthma attack again. koko sms me. *sorry i couldnt meet you :[ he called wif his friend hp during sch hours. I was like quietly gasping for air. I didn't know what to do. So I slept. If i was going to die because of asthma, let me be asleep :D woke up. ate. talk. sms. talk. chat. asthma again. took the inhaler thing. went back to normal :]

AND I DON'T WANT TO GO SCHOOL TOMORROW ! got 2.4km run and fire drill. I had the fire drills and runs DD: But if i don't go, i can't meet koko. haha

Nothing much happen today. Wasn't energetic. felt rather dead. Have yet to talk to koko. It's hard to reach him :/ didn't eat much in school either. The only person that I talked to the most today was perhaps liyana and belinda. Didn't talk to daddy, firdaus or koko. Hardly talked to mum because she was mad as she find me rude. I find her sensitive. haiz. Forgot to bring my malay materials once again. I can't wait to see my psychiatrist again ! Muttaqin was like scaring me in malay class. He kept smiling and signalled that he would tell Mdm Sharifah that I did not bring my homewotk and textbook again. Luckily, he kept quiet. I couldn't help but to giggle everytime he did a particular look. Hidir made me laugh too. Miss hidir lah. Wish he was in my class :D
And his younger brother is ever so cute ! Geram aku. He look like an exact replica of hidir when hidir was sec1. I can't help but to grin when I look at irfan. My god.

Tomorrow will be precisely two months with koko. And it's valentine's day :DD haha..
I've always loved v-day. It somehow brings joy to the atmosphere :] I don't know if this year will be better. But I sure hope so ^^

141207 ♥♥

I am so not used to NOT having a phone :/
Sucks big time D: Can’t sms or call. Boohoo. Sorry I couldn’t reply your message darling* thank my brother for that. Haiz. Went to the dentist today. Pulled out my baby teeth. Lol. Not really painful. Then go carwash. Nur and I called the carwash-man “hotstuff” and the other one, NOThotstuff. Haha. I didn’t come up with it oke. Dearest nur did. Came home. Eat. Eat somemore. Go out again. Climb up and sat on the rooftop. Didn’t see our kawan2. so go near nur block. Crapped a lil while. Go minimart. Saw aizat and zikri. Rushed back home cos maghrib, bathe, watch tv. Mum passed me the letter my maid sent to us when she was sent back. I cried like mad. I miss her so much. Its been 9 years since I last saw her in the airport. I wonder whats she doing now. I wish she was here with me.. then maybe she could have prevented something that happened to me in my past after she left…

Been quite busy lately. Yesterday, I bellydanced with mummy. At first I hesitated cos I knew she was a better dancer. I used the bellydance costume from joo chiat. It made a lot of noise with the bells attached to it. Syahmi kept teasing me while i danced. Later that day, I found out I managed to overtake her in sense of moves. YAY! There were some parts she couldn't do. :DD Practice makes perfect. She had no idea how often I've been practising. Practise when I'm lying down, bathing, babysitting, cooking, chatting. After an hour of bellydancing, mum was like dehydrated. She wondered why I wasn't thirsty or perspiring at all. Instead, I got hungry ! So, ate maggi, then chips, then sardines. Stomach full, then sleeepyyy. What a swine, huh. And today, I couldn't sleep the whole night. Cos i couldnt switch on my phone. So, couldn't rest in peace. Curse you phone ! I hate you more than ever. And I miss koko! D:

my brother and I :]

there are always good times and bad times.You did ruin my life a little. But I just love life when I get to keep your mouth shut. And that's when I blackmail you >:]
Too bad you just had to be so racist.


Okay I'm done crapping here.

Koko, will you marry me x)

my boyfriend. hahahaha

MARRIED at the age of 10

Aizat and nur so cute lah !

My late brother. I wish you were here with us. Maybe you'd been a better brother than the rest

I love my nenek ;DD and always will

Daddy <3>

She's the best maid one could have :D

Now he is in the old folks home D:

Me , Iman, Syakir , Syahmi (cousin and siblings)

Tammy's brother, herself, and me

My Brother and Syahmi

My great granduncle <3>

Faiz, Aizat , my brother , afiq (cousins )

I got this old pics from an abandoned drawers. Mum took it out so I took some before all of them went back to the store room. Didn't scan all pics though.

I play catching with them everyday :D