Today, I went afk on msn for quite sometime.
______ sent me a "letter".
I guess I'm the cause of his thoughts. He lamented a few things and i feel blamed for it.
Maybe I shouldn't have wrote it. But I couldn't have just told him the truth right at the face bluntly. I had no choice.
____, you're not a worthless piece of shit. I'm really sorry,____. I didn't mean it. Maybe all these things happen because there is someone special waiting for you out there. I couldn't stead with you. For some reasons, I just can't. I saw you as a friend. I love you as a friend. I just can't seem to see the chemistry between us. I'm sorry. I would like to make it up to you :/ And you DO deserve to have BGR. And you're NOT a fucker.

I shouldn't have wrote him that letter. But what was I suppose to do ??
Oh god, this is all too confusing D: I am so so so sorry,______. I feel so blamed and angry at myself. At the same time, helpless and remorseful. I was left speechless, unable to reply him, afraid of making things worse.

ONE QUESTION,______.
ARE WE STILL FRIENDS ?
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