I'm tired. So, very tired. I left the house at about 4.30 today. Waited for Firdaus and Aliah. Go the optical shop and Aliah helped us inquire some stuff. Went for the eye consultation. Now then I know I got astig. All my life I thought I got myopia. LOL. Bought blue contacts and Firdaus bought grey contacts. Here's the thing: Me, the inexperienced one wore the contacts and remove it way faster than Firdaus, the experienced one. How ironic ckily, Aliah-dearie bought us some food and drinks. TYVM ! We left the shop after 7.30. Fis that. Even during buke time, we were still at the shop. Luirdaus had to rush home. Bye darling. Then me and Aliah finally had some real food to buke, which was Mac. Ate. Left. Now home. Feeling tired. Lazy to take out contacts. and hooray, tomorrow Hari raye lah seh ! ^^ Well, as I said, I'm tired and I want to retire. So, tata. xoxo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL !
hugs&kisses from me to you babe !

Yay! Fifi-boyfie bought the same colour of tradisional costume as me :D Wee~ He chose cream white over his chosen colour, green ! hahaha. Must go jalan hari raye together-gether tau ! hehs. it's like three more days to hari raya. Like so fast seh. And I only fast for a like a few days :$ Andand I dont know how it's gonna be like on the first day. I'm nervous and excited. Hopefully the thing that Firdaus and I are buying can be received on time. And I hope nothing goes wrong. can't wait for raye ^^ Not cos of the money but I think it's the atmosphere. Although this year is gonna be 100% different in my 15 years of life, but I can't wait to feel the raye.. uh.. feeling :D Well. goodnight ^^

Guess what.. My line is still cut D: Sheesh. I still havent really told my dad yet. hehs. Scared uh. Anyways, Today is my mum's birthday, and I havent bought her a present ! And you know what, instead, today, SHE BOUGHT ME MY PRESENT ! yay ! lol. My birthday falls on 24th Nov and her birthday is today. How ironic is that ? haha. I was busy surfing the net and I came across the apple store. And I saw an ipod. It had a new colour. Red. Nice.. And there was a free engraving. So, I asked my mum, on her birthday, without me getting her present, if she could buy me an ipod. The ipod video I had is spoiled D: It had like 27GB that was unused DD: So, I can't buy that thing again because it's like $$. I decided to buy the cheapest genuine ipod. That is the cute lil shuffle thing. And without my dad's knowledge, the ipod was bought ! YAY!! hahahahaha. I don't know how it's gonna be paid but I used my parent's credit card. :D The ipod will arrive in a few days' time. Sweeeet~

Today is a good day :]
Happy Birthday, Mum.
Or should I say, Happy Birthday to ME ;]

Oh, and there was free engraving, so I wrote my name. Therefore, no one can assume it's their's :D

Ӿ şĦΛĦƦƗʆ Ӿ -------studying says:

Good friends are hard to find

but normal friends are easy to find

good friends are like a solar ecylipse

but normal ones are common

she is caring

she is wonderful

she is one in a million

and she is beautiful

she always make me smile

we live a mile

her name is Sabby

she is my baby

~ShahrilKhairi~

Ahhhh. Sick again. Why am I always absent on Monday and Tuesday. Haiizz. I got the flu bug plus fever. And I can't stop coughing and sneezing. Today, went to hospital for treatment and check-up. Doctor said there's no improvement D: He also said that if 3 months later, still the same. must go for operation. haiya. Then to add my misery, my line got cut DD: Damn fed-up sial. Anyway, urging to release endorphins to make me happy, I decided to go shopping. If only I had my dad's credit card, I would have spent an obscene amount. My eyes suddenly starting catching all the nice bags and accessories and stuff. My mum was surprise because this was not my usual self. Bought necklaces and earrings and wallet without feeling guilty for once ! Well, these days,I'm not in a good mood. I'm not a very nice person right now. I'm vulnerable to get agitated, I don't know why. Maybe it's my hormones or pms. Oh well, bear with me these few days can ?

Today, Savitha read my love book. I was really embarassed. She kept laughing at what I wrote about the guy. In the love book, there was a page about what I looked for in a guy. haha. And she told me that the guy was humble and not pushy. Two of the many descriptions of what I want. lol. And yesterday was a happy day ! :DD

I had a lot of fun chatting with him. First in the afternoon, and then at night. Till about 10.30pm, he decided to call me. We talked for about an hour until my mum scolded me. lol. And all we talked about was, ANIMALS. lol. From cats to guinea pigs, to lions, to cows, to sheep, to lamb, to fish and many2 more. lmao. And right now, I am sooo afraid of rejection. It's not that I'm gonna confess or anything but I'm really scared. I've not been rejected all my life. At least that's what I remember. My previous crush in school don't count cos I only admired him from far.

And today, liyana told me something about ismail. It made me feel insecure and scared. I went really hysterical !

Well, back to yesterday, I went to do my portfolio with godbrother-Firdaus, Madeline and Yizhen. Saw Boiarab FINALLY ! After all these years of knowing him, I finally saw him in real life. lol. At first when he called my name, i ignored. Maluuuuu. lol. Then, when I saw him again ( after a few times) , I stared hard at him, then when he look, I smile :D haha. Then, went to buy food to break my fast. Saw Mohamed ;D Boiarab's bro. He's handsome. Actually, okok luh. But a bit short uh.

Yesterday, was my first day of fasting :D

The thing is, I hate to be in love. Because I know it won't last forever. I feel like the happiest girl on Earth when I'm in love. But very deep inside my heart, I'm depressed when I think of the future. I'm afraid that karma will return because I have not been a good girl to boys lately. I'm not saying I two-time them but I treat them like shit. And of course, I feel bad but sometimes, I can't take their shit anymore. They stress and worry me. I have fallen in deeeeep love only once. And that was Hydir. Yeah, the guy with the obnoxious pic. Well, at that point of time, love was probably very blind. But hey, it lasted for five months. That was my new record. Only that, we never stead and he treated me like real shit. Still, I've never loved a guy for that long ! haha. And here comes this guy now, who lives in the other side of Singapore who makes me jump in excitement whenever he talks to me. He's got this some kind of a charm. And Firdaus claims that he's not that handsome to begin with. Just this typical average *race boy. Am I really in love for the second time? Will I be serious for the very first time? I see it as more of a crush. I am afraid, very afraid. Afraid of the consequences, afraid of rejection, afraid of the impact it has, afraid of love... What will people think of me. One minute with that guy, the other with another, and so on.

Well, I'll just go with flow and see how it goes.

*either malay,chinese,indian

Went to geylang with Firdaus and Afa last night. Apparently, I was super late. hehs. Well, it's not my fault ! It was the ten bucks' fault. haha. I came with the Family Day shirt. And I could tell they were surprise. Borrow Firdaus' cardigan to go with my cheetah spaghetti top. Then took the MRT to Paya Lebar. I was damn thirsty. Bought Lychee and finished it real fast. Then struggled to eat the lychee in the bottle. It was soo unglam. Afa actually had to teach me how to do it. haha. And I was very OBLIVIOUS to my surrounding such that paedophiles talked to me and stared at my body parts; I was totally unaware of D: There was nothing much as usual. I see the same things, same people again and again. lol. But i didn't get to see this particularly hot guy working for his dad in one of the shops in Joo Chiat. I am most disappointed. Ruhilda claimed she saw me but unfortunately, she was no where in sight. It was very tiring. We walked and walked. And I was claustrophobic which made the situation even worse. My make-up probably had melt by then. I also had trouble pulling my top up to 'prevent unwanted eyes' . Firdaus finally bought samping, chapal and some tshirts. He got a free cardigan. See firdaus? God has rewarded you a white cardigan for generously lending his beloved creation, Sabira :DD

Oh man, I got to stopped[corrected by Eden] using the laptop. Oh well, toodles.

AND TECKTONIK dance is so GAY. x]

2 SONGS DEDICATED TO 2 LOVELY DUDES

Meet hydir :DD This pic is sooo obnoxious x) ! Well he's the guy that laogong wrote about for me above !



BADBOY! A song was dedicated to you from my laogong~

LOSE CONTROL KOKO, by "Missy Elliot"
edited by laogong.
Music makes you lose Koko
Music makes you lose Koko Lets go
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Here we go now
Here we go now
Here we go now
Here we go now
Watch out now
(music make u lose koko)
Firdaus in da house
Koko's in da house
Sabby's in tha house
Fat man scoop man scoop man scoop

(...)

[No offence is intended !]

"Over-cooked hamburger" -And I laughed my butt off !

Back to school yesterday :D So happy to come ^^. But my chest hurt real bad the whole morning. Didn't fast but went on a strict diet. Fluids only ! I didn't eat or drink in the morning. And at 2, I drank lychee juice. That's it! Did my portfolio with Adeline, and later Hazwan , then Cheryl and Raf. At 4.30, walked home with Yassin ;D Talked about stuff and all. Then got ready to go Geylang to buy my tradisional costume for the upcoming Hari Raya :D Found a green one to match with Firdaus^^ But this crazy man with poor costumer service said that I couldn't try this $180 costume because it was on the cheapskate, plastic headless and legless and armless effing mannequin. He said ," if confirm buy, then i let you try," Go to hell lah. Cb. My mum and I walked away. We went into a shop to buy Syahmi's sarong. Then got this oh-so-hot-and-cute guy served us ^^ Then I bought a telekong and his dad served us. The guy so handsome leh ! My gawd.. I really felt like asking his number. lol. But I didn't cos it feels awkward to ask :/ Nevermiind, tomorrow I'm going back with godbrother-Firdaus and Aliah :DD I wanna see this hottie again cann ? hahaha.

Studied in the afternoon yesterday. Then went to the Mosque with my beloved godbrother, Firdaus, with shutters -.-" I was so embarrassed ! Bought some food and free porridge. Camwhored under the block. I told Firdaus about the place we were sitting were usually being Lepak-ed by these particular group of guys. And soon, they came while we were in the midst of camwhoring with the shutters. LOL. I prayed hard they don't regconise me. I mean, I've known one of them since pri 6, while we were playing soccer. I deeply embarrassed. haha. They walked past us to go some other place to probably sit down. Sat a lil longer, then took the bus home. It was only one stop actually. A few hours later, I went to Geylang with mummy and mimi. It was raining D: Saw Hadidi a couple of times. He waved real funny. It cracked me up. I smiled at him, not knowing if he saw it. There were times I ignored his presence cos I had to run to certain places :$. Blame the rain, but nevertheless i'm sorry. And no, I didn't buy any traditional clothes yet. I'm gonna buy it with my dear godbrother :DD

Been really stress about everything. My bills are really high. I can't afford to pay D: And I'm stuck in other situations as well. My studies are like going to hit rock bottom. The trip to the hospital is driving me nutts. There's so much to do, yet so little time. I wish I could just press pause. I really need to make money right now. If my mum finds out how much my bills are, I am sooo dead. Now it's fasting month. It sucks because the trip to the hospital wears me out. Then it's hari raya and I have no mood for it. And then there's exams which I have to really do well or I will definitely RETAIN. That even more sucks the shit out of me.
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