Okay Firdaus -.-
Updaaaaatiiiiiiiing..
I thought I'd post pics of my family and I in Kl, Melaka, Genting, Cameron, Kota Tinggi. But too lazy.. There's like hundreds.

Anyway, I went for my FIRST visit to the phychiatrist. Told hime a lot of things. But I think I lost my diamond ring there cos I was fidgeting with it while talking and it kept falling. DDD:
He told me to come again on the first day of school. I was like, " Alaaaaar". And it's in the morning :/
He gave me a note or something to show my teacher that I have to go off early. I told my dad to pick me up at around 9.15 . Might as well don't come to school right ? But I still want to come.

I'm dye-ing my hair again. But I don't know when. It's either dark brown or jet black. But mum and koko insist on dark brown. I don't know whether to choose Lo'real or Revlon. Loreal's colors are nice and natural but it DOESN'T stays very long ): Revlon's looks unnatural but it stays and it's much cheaper. So, which one ??

Today will be my last day in Singapore. Then I'm off to KL..then other places. I am so gonna miss everyone here ):
Gonna miss talking to Koko, Firdaus, Liyana on the phone. Gonna miss everyone else in friendster, blogs, msn and hp. To me, it's gonna be a looooooong way til I get back. Til then, I'll be missing you guys D:

Koko, don't worry. I'll sms you every now and then, dear :)
Liyana, firdaus,mama, I sms you too kayy ? Firdaus, maybe I will maybe i won't :P see my mood :D hehes

I LOVE YOU GUYS <3

Went out again yesterday. Met up with nurizyan at the bus stop with Syahmi. Returned some books to the library at white sands. The three of us then borrowed some books to bring to Kuala Lumpur. We walked pass the "THINGY", it sort of rang. The librarian called us out and said that we had scanned the books to fast. kiter kan the Flash :D Took neoprints after that.hahah. then we had out dinner at Mac. I was foolishly trying to push the "button" to pour out the ketchup but wasnt strong enough.. I'm a weakling lah. Can't even do a simple task for nur. Then2, got one quite guy asked me, "boleh tak" [can or not] He was standing beside me. I kept QUIET. :$ Too embarrassed to turn around to reply or say anything. I pretended not to hear. I FEEL VERY BAD oke. Then I heard him say to his friend that i just keep quite :$ I very paiseh lor. He was going for a break after working at McCafe. I walked behind him as I brought the food to the table. Wanted to apologise but he went into the staff room. damn. I am very very very sorry, McCafe guy.

Oh yar, I'd like to thank the chinese boy who returned my beloved ,just-bought handphone to me when I left it at the neoprint machine, and my keys :D
That was realy nice of you and your friends. And thank you chinese boy's friends. lol. I really appreciate it. May god bless you.

and sorry mcCafe guy :$

Leaving for KL soon. Daddy said must leave home at 6am. Wth. So early sak. I'm gonna be really sleepy. I don't know what to bring to go there. And I also don't know when I'm coming back. But daddy said must bring jackets. Gonna miss a lot of ppl. It's probably the longest vacation I've ever had since decades. LOL.

Went to pick up the cupcakes from Jillyn today. Was so sleepy in the morning. I had to keep scolding syahmi to not play psp until he's ready. But noooooo, he continued playing. I was damn pissed. While walking to the pick-up point, which was outside greenview, Syahmi got tired. WTH. I was so angry at him. So low stamina siak. Walk lil bit then tired D: I told him to hurry. But he kept complaining that he was tired. Throughout the SHORT journey, he played psp and strolled. He was way behind me. I'm sorry we were late, Jillyn.

Got the cupcakes and ate it at home. Nicely decorated.

AND DELICIOUS oke!

haha.

talked to koko on the phone. He was at parkway parade.

Well, now I got to go to White Sands to return books again. Missed out one.

Then need to take medicine from Doc.

Oh wells.

and Firdaus, I don't really understand your Part 1 . So confusing. Making my small brain haywire :p

Went out with mum and syahmi yesterday. Bought some make-up for both my mother and me. Syahmi was like complaining the whole time. We warned him not to come before that! But he insisted on coming -.=" Mum ordered some cupcakes that syahmi loved. She bought the same thing for like more than 4 times already. lol.

Had my nails manicured at tamp mall and it SUCKED big time. Please luh. I can do much better than that ! It didn't shine & looked horrible and my mum wasted $24 for that shit. hais. Walked and walked around tamp mall. Saw Aisyah in a pink baju kurung. Pretty lah. Her blond fringe convinced myself it was her. After that, headed to Watsons. Bought quite a number of stuff. Then, took the mrt to white sands. Took the ordered cupcakes. And cabbed home. Ate non-stop for two hours cos had to stopped eating at 10 sharp. I know I'm glutton :p Talked to darling firdaus while eating. At about 11, I got hungry again D: But I resisted. Before I went to bed, I pedicured mummy's toenails. Suddenly, Mum gave me something I thought I'd never have gotten. A FRENCH MANICURE SET ! YAYYYYYYYY! :DDD

Mum bought it but didnt know what it does. LOL. I was so ecstatic. I always wanted it and now I got it!Actually, she didnt know I wanted that set. I tried it on straight away. THANK YOU MAMA, YOU"RE THE BEST :')But it would have gotten better if you bought me two tickets to MCR concert ! D:

We got along

We got along

We got along until you did that

Now all I want is just my WRISTBAND back

Do you get that?

Let me repeat that

I want my WRISTBAND back

You can send it in a box

I don't care

Just drop it off

I won't be home!

Cause without me you know you're lost

Minus you I'm better off

Soon you will know, oh!

Dedicated to someone who was once special :D

credits to firdaus (: Thanks hunns.

that red wristband was given to the once-special someone :p

Before I die, I'd like to go for my pilgrimage or something.

But before I do that, I want to accomplice certain things ^^

Join clinics/clubs for:

soccer

table tennis

tennis

dance

rugby^^

hockey

golf

kick-boxing

fencing

archery

canoeing

dragon boat

Body-building

skiing

snowboarding

Learn:

Ice-skating

Roller-blading

Swimming

Horse-riding

Fishing

Do:

G-MAX Reverse Bungy ! [a total must]

Somersault into a river :D

go skyride

travel around the world with mummy and daddy(:

make a million dollars by investment through flipping

run a 10km marathon

have NO kids and NO hubby ^^ wee~

able to do split

go disneyland in Florida

scuba-diving

able to understand the Quran

ABLE TO MEMORISE THE QURAN :DD woohoo!

vitiligo get cured :')

get back memory :')

HAVE FREEDOM.

then i shall do the whatever pilgrim thingy known as haji.

then open a mosque after my name x)

then open a foundation for the less fortunate in Africa ?

After that, I WILL BE READY TO DIE PEACEFULLY. ..

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At first, I was fine with the fact that we're gonna forget each other. But now I'm sad and maybe a lil happy. I've never loved someone for this long.. five months, then suddenly just ended. Firdaus and Syahmi are playing xbox together now, behind me. I guessed I'm feeling quite down cos i wasted 5 months loving someone. However, I strongly agree that it's time forget each other and face the fact that we just ain't right for each other. Though I knew it all along, I just didn't know how to put. He seemed very,very happy. He said that if i was sad, he'd be MORE than happy. But I didn't regret knowing him. He showed me how it was like to be truly in love. He was right. Love is BLIND. We met once, and that was it. He taught me a lot and he changed me a lil to be a better person in life. It's time to let go. And I'm already starting to erase the memories we had in my mind. It's easy for me cos i suffer severe memory loss. Doctors still don't know what's wrong with me though. By tomorrow, everything will be gone from my mind. The only thing that I 'll be leaving to remember is his name.

GOODBYE :')
I don't love you, like I did yesterday.
I'm really gonna miss you but I'm never taking you back.